I didn't want to go to Calcutta. Never wanted to. During the many months before my trip that I spent micromanaging futures that were unlikely to be played out, Calcutta never came up. Too dirty. Too crowded. Too urban. Even upon reaching India, even upon inching closer toward Calcutta on the map, the city and I repelled each other like a couple of negatively charged magnets. I slipped into India with lingering spiritual questions and a desire for reflective growth, and in my judging mind Calcutta seemed antithetical to this.
Expectedly, unexpected circumstances arose, and a Buddhist Monastery in the town where Buddha found enlightenment proved unfit for my spiritual development. Too quiet. Too peaceful. Too removed from the undeniable chaos and noise that is as much a part of our world as solitary trees and meditative hilltops. So I flipped open the ole' Lonely Planet and found that lo' and behold, in crazy, chaotic Calcutta there was an ideal volunteering opportunity at Mother Teresa's Missionaries for Charities where I could work with destitute Indians during their Death. Sounded like the opposite of an artificially calm monastery. It sounded more like a firm kick in the crotch from Reality's steel-tipped boots of Suffering. Sign me up.
The next day, fueled in equal parts by the enigmatic curiosity of pre-historic Sea-Crossers and the masochistic lunacy of a Social Worker, I boarded the train to Kolkata. Haha, masochistic curiosity. At one point, not too long ago, deep in the Himalayas at the snow-covered base of Mt. Everest, I felt the clouds of confusion clear away, revealing my illuminous Soul which told me my purpose on this Trip was to pursue, appreciate and create that which holds unmistakable beauty. Now, I'm being wildly led astray through foreign lands by the impulsive hands of Masochistic Curiosity... Gosh... No wonder my Mom worries about me so much...
Calcutta's first impressions were about what I'd expect from an India metropolis. Crazy, overpopulated, polluted. Saying that, the touts weren't quite as harassing as they were in Delhi and unlike Kathmandu the city had sidewalks, so it felt oddly comfortable. I wasted a day away in this comfortable madhouse with some vagabonds who were at least equally odd as myself. Then, the Beginning of Everything began.
First, I received my orientation at Mother Teresa's Charity where I planned to spend a week volunteering. I arrived early, and for a while sat nearly alone in a non-descript Hall in an inconspicuous Nunnery tucked away from Calcutta Chaos. I watched as a few people wandered in, spreading across the hall in small, scattered groups. Suddenly, swarming, gossiping hordes of teenagers assaulted the orientation and quickly transformed the hall to a loud, overcrowded Mass of Humanity. In other words, they brought India along with them.
Thus, orientation commenced in the manner you'd expect with a large, bustling group of confused people. Logistical and impersonal. We learned the whens (7:00 am.), the wheres (Prem Dam), the whos (people with long-term mental or physical disabilities, NOT the terminally ill like I thought) and the whats (cleaning and compassionate interaction with the residents) but left the whys completely untouched. Skeptical thoughts started brewing. What difference can huge groups of untrained well-wishers make on such complicated and personal matters? Why is everyone even here? Why am I even here? Hanging around snickering teenagers made it easy to cynically question others' abilities and motivations, but it was even easier to question my own. I mean, I readily acknowledged that I just wanted to get kicked in the nuts. Well, to be fair, I also wanted to learn about social problems and social work practices in India, and I kinda hoped I could do something at least minimally useful to the Residents. Still, a dispassionate wish to check things out and broaden my perspective isn't exactly the best qualification to carry on the work started by the boundlessly compassionate Mother Teresa.
I left the orientation and that lingering thought behind for a bit, for I had my second date with the Beginning of Everything rapidly approaching - a couchsurfing meetup where I would have the rare India tourist opportunity to actually talk and hang out with Indians. Also, it was here I would meet the man who was offering me his couch to crash on. Admittedly, I walked into the meetup with an uncharacteristic tinge of apprehension. My last Couchsurfing experience in Varanasi led to awkward silences with fundamental India parents who neglected to acknowledge me and terrifying motorbike rides with drivers who neglected traffic laws (but that's another story). Despite this, I confidently strolled into the cafe feeling mostly excited and hopeful for the possibilities that can evolve from kickin' it and sleeping over at stranger's homes.
The meetup was an easy-going, fun time that taught me a lot about Kolkata life and attitudes and laid down the foundation for even more enlightening experiences down the road. Amongst the ten men assembled there, two became most important in this foundation - Anjan Moto and Sudipta Dawn. Anjan is a large, stocky guy in this early 20s who might look intimidating if he didn't have such pinchable cheeks and affable air about him. Anjan and I (but mostly Anjan) talked a lot and he made the extroverted offer/demand that we meet up later in the week. Fine by me. The more random strangers I hang out with the better.
Then there was Sudpita Dawn, a 30-something year old guy who wears the sort of tattered goatee and hastily combed hair that suggests you might be dealing with one sly son of a bitch. He carries a relaxed, loose posture that proclaims to the World he doesn't quite give a shit and his wry grin and choppy chortle hints that he may have a perfectly valid reason to not give a shit.
Apart from this, he houses a dry, occasionally confounding sense of humor that he displayed right off the bat. Out of nowhere he excused us from the group and matter-of-factly informed me that we had to go back to his house and go for a race. A race? "Yes, a race Doug. A foot-race between you and I. Hurry let's go." I kinda thought he was kidding until we stopped off at his tall, narrow concrete home and he grabbed his running shoes. Rolling with it, we continued down the streets toward the race track.
Walking through old, non-touristic streets and chatting away with an intelligent and witty local about life transformed the city of Calcutta in my eyes. Ya, there was plastic bags and wrappers strewn liberally along the tired, worn-down slabs of concrete housing. Ya, there was that ubiquitous India dust hanging in the air and on the strained storefronts. But there was more than that. Underneath that beat-up, Indian veneer was a City and People that was alive with ideas and damned proud of who it was. It had that character of a scruffy, ragged man who got roughed up pretty bad in a fight over a girl, but still came away with her Heart. Calcutta ceased to be a set piece in my crazy adventure and became a companion.
Another companion joined us when some White French girl apparated from a side alley and stated she was going to join the race, which Dawn seemed to approve of. So Cleo, how do you and Dawn know eachother. "We met at an electronic show at an Indian rooftop party." Cool. The rest of our conversation suffered quite a bit from accent barriers (For some reason, the French can't understand American accents very well), but she smiled a lot, was working on an interesting (I think) project. Plus, any white girl who frequents Techno-Indian parties and is ballsy enough to maintain relationships with the men she meets there wins major brownie points in my book.
A few moments later, we arrived at a park, slithered through the gate and prepared for the race on the surprisingly nice and even track. Only then did I finally realize that Dawn was just being sarcastic. We were just going for a pleasant evening jog with his friend Cleo. Feeling slightly disappointed and stupid, but mostly relieved, I declined the offer to jog and just ambly strolled along the track. After a half-hour or so, Dawn called my cell and let me know he was on the other side, so I rounded the bend and headed there.
My danger radar started beeping, and I noticed an older man walking quickly along the track behind me, seemingly in an effort to catch up with me. Alert but unfrightened, I welcomed his approach with my Fight or Flight instinct a milimeter or so underneath my skin. "Hello, which country are you from?" America. "Very good country. I want to feel your muscles." Flight it is. Not knowing the culturally sensitive response to creepy old men, I just ran, ran, ran, all the way back to the front gate. Once there I relayed the story to Dawn who dryly told me, "Yes, he most likely wanted to have sex with you. Many gay rapists come to this Park."
I'm not really sure why we went to a Park famous for Gay Rapists. I'm sure parks with nice tracks are in short supply in Calcutta, but I would go so far as to say that no park at all is better than a Gay Rapist Park. Even someone as masochistically curious as myself is neither masochistic or curious enough to willingly explore the inner-working of Gay Rapist Park.
Before I know it, the Gay Rapists are a comfortable distance behind us, I'm parting ways with Cleo, and Dawn is escorting me up his narrow staircase to my room on the top floor. Lying in bed, I reflect on the fact that two nights ago I was sleeping in a monastery in Bodhgaya and now I'm sleeping at some guy's house in Calcutta. When you're on the road, Reality has a funny way of dissolving and reappearing in new and unexpected forms, like a magician who changes his entire wardrobe in a finger-snap moment behind a falling curtain. Just like this, the Beginning of Everything said ta-da, faded away, and left me with my new reality- Mother Teresa, Couchsurfing and Calcutta - and the Beginning of Everything Else.
Expectedly, unexpected circumstances arose, and a Buddhist Monastery in the town where Buddha found enlightenment proved unfit for my spiritual development. Too quiet. Too peaceful. Too removed from the undeniable chaos and noise that is as much a part of our world as solitary trees and meditative hilltops. So I flipped open the ole' Lonely Planet and found that lo' and behold, in crazy, chaotic Calcutta there was an ideal volunteering opportunity at Mother Teresa's Missionaries for Charities where I could work with destitute Indians during their Death. Sounded like the opposite of an artificially calm monastery. It sounded more like a firm kick in the crotch from Reality's steel-tipped boots of Suffering. Sign me up.
The next day, fueled in equal parts by the enigmatic curiosity of pre-historic Sea-Crossers and the masochistic lunacy of a Social Worker, I boarded the train to Kolkata. Haha, masochistic curiosity. At one point, not too long ago, deep in the Himalayas at the snow-covered base of Mt. Everest, I felt the clouds of confusion clear away, revealing my illuminous Soul which told me my purpose on this Trip was to pursue, appreciate and create that which holds unmistakable beauty. Now, I'm being wildly led astray through foreign lands by the impulsive hands of Masochistic Curiosity... Gosh... No wonder my Mom worries about me so much...
Calcutta's first impressions were about what I'd expect from an India metropolis. Crazy, overpopulated, polluted. Saying that, the touts weren't quite as harassing as they were in Delhi and unlike Kathmandu the city had sidewalks, so it felt oddly comfortable. I wasted a day away in this comfortable madhouse with some vagabonds who were at least equally odd as myself. Then, the Beginning of Everything began.
First, I received my orientation at Mother Teresa's Charity where I planned to spend a week volunteering. I arrived early, and for a while sat nearly alone in a non-descript Hall in an inconspicuous Nunnery tucked away from Calcutta Chaos. I watched as a few people wandered in, spreading across the hall in small, scattered groups. Suddenly, swarming, gossiping hordes of teenagers assaulted the orientation and quickly transformed the hall to a loud, overcrowded Mass of Humanity. In other words, they brought India along with them.
Thus, orientation commenced in the manner you'd expect with a large, bustling group of confused people. Logistical and impersonal. We learned the whens (7:00 am.), the wheres (Prem Dam), the whos (people with long-term mental or physical disabilities, NOT the terminally ill like I thought) and the whats (cleaning and compassionate interaction with the residents) but left the whys completely untouched. Skeptical thoughts started brewing. What difference can huge groups of untrained well-wishers make on such complicated and personal matters? Why is everyone even here? Why am I even here? Hanging around snickering teenagers made it easy to cynically question others' abilities and motivations, but it was even easier to question my own. I mean, I readily acknowledged that I just wanted to get kicked in the nuts. Well, to be fair, I also wanted to learn about social problems and social work practices in India, and I kinda hoped I could do something at least minimally useful to the Residents. Still, a dispassionate wish to check things out and broaden my perspective isn't exactly the best qualification to carry on the work started by the boundlessly compassionate Mother Teresa.
I left the orientation and that lingering thought behind for a bit, for I had my second date with the Beginning of Everything rapidly approaching - a couchsurfing meetup where I would have the rare India tourist opportunity to actually talk and hang out with Indians. Also, it was here I would meet the man who was offering me his couch to crash on. Admittedly, I walked into the meetup with an uncharacteristic tinge of apprehension. My last Couchsurfing experience in Varanasi led to awkward silences with fundamental India parents who neglected to acknowledge me and terrifying motorbike rides with drivers who neglected traffic laws (but that's another story). Despite this, I confidently strolled into the cafe feeling mostly excited and hopeful for the possibilities that can evolve from kickin' it and sleeping over at stranger's homes.
The meetup was an easy-going, fun time that taught me a lot about Kolkata life and attitudes and laid down the foundation for even more enlightening experiences down the road. Amongst the ten men assembled there, two became most important in this foundation - Anjan Moto and Sudipta Dawn. Anjan is a large, stocky guy in this early 20s who might look intimidating if he didn't have such pinchable cheeks and affable air about him. Anjan and I (but mostly Anjan) talked a lot and he made the extroverted offer/demand that we meet up later in the week. Fine by me. The more random strangers I hang out with the better.
Then there was Sudpita Dawn, a 30-something year old guy who wears the sort of tattered goatee and hastily combed hair that suggests you might be dealing with one sly son of a bitch. He carries a relaxed, loose posture that proclaims to the World he doesn't quite give a shit and his wry grin and choppy chortle hints that he may have a perfectly valid reason to not give a shit.
Apart from this, he houses a dry, occasionally confounding sense of humor that he displayed right off the bat. Out of nowhere he excused us from the group and matter-of-factly informed me that we had to go back to his house and go for a race. A race? "Yes, a race Doug. A foot-race between you and I. Hurry let's go." I kinda thought he was kidding until we stopped off at his tall, narrow concrete home and he grabbed his running shoes. Rolling with it, we continued down the streets toward the race track.
Walking through old, non-touristic streets and chatting away with an intelligent and witty local about life transformed the city of Calcutta in my eyes. Ya, there was plastic bags and wrappers strewn liberally along the tired, worn-down slabs of concrete housing. Ya, there was that ubiquitous India dust hanging in the air and on the strained storefronts. But there was more than that. Underneath that beat-up, Indian veneer was a City and People that was alive with ideas and damned proud of who it was. It had that character of a scruffy, ragged man who got roughed up pretty bad in a fight over a girl, but still came away with her Heart. Calcutta ceased to be a set piece in my crazy adventure and became a companion.
Another companion joined us when some White French girl apparated from a side alley and stated she was going to join the race, which Dawn seemed to approve of. So Cleo, how do you and Dawn know eachother. "We met at an electronic show at an Indian rooftop party." Cool. The rest of our conversation suffered quite a bit from accent barriers (For some reason, the French can't understand American accents very well), but she smiled a lot, was working on an interesting (I think) project. Plus, any white girl who frequents Techno-Indian parties and is ballsy enough to maintain relationships with the men she meets there wins major brownie points in my book.
A few moments later, we arrived at a park, slithered through the gate and prepared for the race on the surprisingly nice and even track. Only then did I finally realize that Dawn was just being sarcastic. We were just going for a pleasant evening jog with his friend Cleo. Feeling slightly disappointed and stupid, but mostly relieved, I declined the offer to jog and just ambly strolled along the track. After a half-hour or so, Dawn called my cell and let me know he was on the other side, so I rounded the bend and headed there.
My danger radar started beeping, and I noticed an older man walking quickly along the track behind me, seemingly in an effort to catch up with me. Alert but unfrightened, I welcomed his approach with my Fight or Flight instinct a milimeter or so underneath my skin. "Hello, which country are you from?" America. "Very good country. I want to feel your muscles." Flight it is. Not knowing the culturally sensitive response to creepy old men, I just ran, ran, ran, all the way back to the front gate. Once there I relayed the story to Dawn who dryly told me, "Yes, he most likely wanted to have sex with you. Many gay rapists come to this Park."
I'm not really sure why we went to a Park famous for Gay Rapists. I'm sure parks with nice tracks are in short supply in Calcutta, but I would go so far as to say that no park at all is better than a Gay Rapist Park. Even someone as masochistically curious as myself is neither masochistic or curious enough to willingly explore the inner-working of Gay Rapist Park.
Before I know it, the Gay Rapists are a comfortable distance behind us, I'm parting ways with Cleo, and Dawn is escorting me up his narrow staircase to my room on the top floor. Lying in bed, I reflect on the fact that two nights ago I was sleeping in a monastery in Bodhgaya and now I'm sleeping at some guy's house in Calcutta. When you're on the road, Reality has a funny way of dissolving and reappearing in new and unexpected forms, like a magician who changes his entire wardrobe in a finger-snap moment behind a falling curtain. Just like this, the Beginning of Everything said ta-da, faded away, and left me with my new reality- Mother Teresa, Couchsurfing and Calcutta - and the Beginning of Everything Else.